Tomorrow is exactly 6 weeks since my half-marathon and I almost got there without having laced up my running shoes once that whole time!
I totally connected with Amanda on this week’s (and last week’s) Biggest Loser when she kept saying that she couldn’t do things. She had always been the fat girl and that truly knocks your confidence and makes you think you can’t, or shouldn’t, be doing things.
So since my half-marathon I haven’t ran. I was overwhelmed by the idea that I’d run a race, that I’d run 13.1 miles and I didn’t know what should come next. I also think a part of me felt like I wasn’t a real runner, and only a real runner would continue to run after the race they’d been training for. And I don’t feel like a real runner, I’m still the fat girl!
But tonight, I laced up my running shoes and I told myself that it didn’t matter if I only ran to the end of the road and back – I just needed to put them on and get out the door.
I didn’t turn on my Garmin or let my Ipod count down the minutes I just ran out that door. And when I got to the end of the road I kept going, and I got to the mile marker and I still felt great so I kept going and then I realised that I’m going to be late to my friend’s birthday party so I had to turn back but I felt great!
And I ran 2.5 miles in a little over 30 minutes, averaging about 12:45min/mile.
And I feel pretty damn pleased with myself!
P.S. When did it get so cold all of a sudden – I had to crack out the fingerless gloves!